Sick of and for Home?

Have you ever been homesick?”

What is home but a feeling of reassurance,

and if it is that as I know it is.

I’ve been homesick my whole life.

There’s nothing like the conviction that you live,

not to live but to survive,

that you smile not to be happy,

but to fit the mold,

that you stay in the here and now,

not because you want to,

but because it is easier on others and what they are familiar with.

And after all this,

there is nothing more sorrowful than to know what home looks and feels like,

and turn your back on it,

because it is easier for home if you let it go.

By Ambreen Beenish